Even though
my parents loved me I found it hard
to believe it sometimes. I grew up thinking I was useless and good
for nothing because my dad told me that I was. As I was small, people always
picked on me and beat me up. I had
no self esteem so I just let people
walk all over me.
I was always trying to prove that I was better than what people thought. Music
was my life from a very early age so I threw myself into that. It seemed to
satisfy me for a while. Eventually my music lost all enjoyment for me.
I thought that having lots of money was the answer but people only loved me
while I was able to spend it on them.
I thought fast cars were the answer, but
when the cars were gone, so were the friends.
I thought being strong and fit was the answer so I got into every sport I
could, but that didn’t last long.
I tried lots of relationships but
couldn’t keep one. I didn’t know how to treat them. I was always scared of not
being good enough.
I started hating everything around me; this world, my life, people. Everything
seemed to let me down. I couldn’t even love my family.
Then it happened. One day my best friend told me that I needed Jesus in my
life, not just to go to church but to know Him personally.
So that’s what I did. I accepted Jesus into my life as my personal Saviour and
Lord. Talk about blow my mind. Everything got turned around in my life.
Suddenly I started seeing the world differently. It was amazing. Nothing could
satisfy my life like the love of Jesus. I could actually feel God’s love and
accept who I am in Him.
I love people now and want to be around them and they want to be around me.
Seeing my mum come to know Jesus was the
greatest thing that has happened to me. It took ten years but when she said
that she wanted what I had, it blew everything else away. God answers prayer,
maybe not always when we expect it to happen or how we want it but He never
fails.
Now I have a purpose in my life and a wonderful family in Christ. God has
given me great friends and also a reason for living. Glory to God.
Steve